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Secrets I forgot to mention
 
Just a married whore who loves sex and affairs! Even my best friends are oblivious to the kinda sex lifestyle I currently live.
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Waves
Posted:Feb 6, 2022 9:03 pm
Last Updated:Feb 6, 2022 9:18 pm
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It’s been a minute since my last blog. I’ve been extremely busy and just trying to keep my mental health in chec I’m alive, doing well and just trying to survive in a fucked up world. Life is full of ups and downs and learning what I can and cannot control has been my biggest …..what’s the word I’m for… hang up, I guess.

Last October L and I had made plans to go to a haunted house. It a couple hours away and I had worked it out to where I just going to spend the night at his place. The day before he calls and says his sister and her husband wanted to go. My first thought I’m out but L like it’ll be fine. He said he going to go over and talk to them and explain the situation. L and his sis are super close and even if she didn’t agree or understand there no way she’d ever throw me under the bus.

The next morning L and I met up for our morning run and gave me the details of the convo from the previous night. They were cool with it and actually couldn’t wait to meet the mystery that took him to the airport and looked after his house while he’s away.

I pull up to L’s place round 5 and they were already there. I got extremely nervous, I’m talking about knots in my stomach. I sat in my car for about minutes and finally L comes outside because he wasn’t sure if I was on the phone or why it was taking me so long to come in. He assured me everything was cool and I should come in.

I walked in and was greeted by a gorgeous blonde that handed me a shot of fireball. We all stood in the kitchen and talked, did a couple more shots and finished our beer. We hopped in the rubicon and headed to the haunted house. On the way there sis asked if she could pair her phone to play the music and so I had to unpair mine so she could so. Her husband made the comment that things must be serious if his car connected to my phone over L’s in his own car. Lol

We all chatted pretty much the entire ride there while sipping on the fireball sis grabbed on the way out the door. We were feeling pretty good by the time we got there and the line was already super long. The fellas went and got the tickets while me and sis went to get in line. We waited about an hour before it was our time to go through. We go through it and he was pretty good. I HATE chainsaws so that’s the only time I thought I was going to shit my pants. It was a good time.

It was pushing o’clock and they asked what time I needed to go home and I told them I planning on staying at L’s and sis got excited and started to look for another haunted house near by or that we could get to before they closed. She found one and we headed there. This one out in the middle of nowhere and just the drive spooky. It ok but not as good as the first one. It rather short but it getting late and we had a 2 hour drive bac I could tell L getting tired.

On the way back the car got quiet and I thought sis and her hubby had fallen asleep so I got out my phone and just hit a playlist. Electric Feel by MGMT came on and the car came alive! It’s such an old school jam but it’s a feel good song….. no pun intended.

Sis and I added each other on so we could capture our adventure and so after that night she and I talked often. Her and her hubby would come over for dinner and we all just got along so well. Our are the same ages and we just become really good friends. She’s like L and really easy to talk to. But his made things harder on mine and L’s relationship.

Last year really hard year for me. There a time I looked at myself in the mirror and I asked myself how I even still standing. I knew it because of L and now his sister who constantly checked in with me daily. I think L kind felt like since I became friends with his sister that I confided to her over him. L is not a jealous person at all but I could see it and he got real stand-off.

One night they came over for dinner and the four of us sat outside and sis mentioned she couldn’t wait till this summer for the to get together and swim. L looked at her and said, NO! We aren’t doing all that. We made a decision that we’d keep our completely out of the picture as far as meeting them until I completely out of my marriage. That’s the first time I’ve ever seen him this upset. I didn’t know how to handle this situation so I just cleaned up the kitchen and going to leave.

His sister had decided it time to leave and hugged me bye. I walked into L’s bedroom where I found him laying down. I sat at the edge of his bed and told him the kitchen clean and sis and BIL had left and that I going to head home. He grabbed me and pulled down to him and apologized. I didn’t to leave him that night but I had to get home to my . Because that’s the only reason I’m still in my marriage.

Last week when I went to L,s for our weekly dinner I pleasantly surprised to see sis and BIL there. I sitting at the table with BIL and he said, “ you know we all got you when you decide to leave your situation.” I just nodded my head. He told me they all loved me and they too understand why I can’t and won’t leave now. L returned to the table with chilled and dressed shots of Patron. We cheers to a great friendship and lots patience and understanding.

Waves~ Mr Probz
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Bad Habits
Posted:Aug 27, 2021 11:25 am
Last Updated:Jan 2, 2022 12:29 pm
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My bad habits got me married with a couple of . That question got brought up at one of the “backyard sessions” Could I ever be content with just one guy for the rest of my life? The answer is, I just don’t know. If there ever comes an opportunity for me someone I’m sexually attracted then I’m going probably take it. That’s the problem with me, I care way too much not to give a shit when it comes to my sex life. But here we are………

No, I’m not to fucking anyone new or right now. I’m very content with everything in my life at this moment. Why do I keep my Free Social Sex Network profile active, well for this blog and it’s the only way I can keep up with a few of the ones I’ve met on here. I finally took the kick app off my phone because I just don’t use it. But if the opportunity for me to someone, I would do it. L knows this and understands it and we talk about it all the time. Communication is KEY dealing with affairs and random hook ups.

My favorite type of hookup is the types you don’t see coming. The ones that you can cut the tension with a knife but always lean towards the “don’t do it, this can cause problems”…….. but when you do take that one chance and go for it and it’s even hotter than you’d imagine. That happened with Mike.

Mike and I were co workers and at this point in my life I was single and having fun and so was he. Mike is a few years younger than me and back then it was a turn off for me. But Mike was pretty sexy. The hair was always in place and that goatee was perfected with a straight blade. He had that bad smile that made me just want jump his bones. Of course we flirted but we never really hung out outside of wor No one really ever talked about us be overly flirty with each other. We were just co workers. When you work in the hospitality field, drama is gonna happen. Whether you choose be a part of it or you stay out of it, it’s happening.

One night at work things got tense, really tense. I mean it’s a Friday night, everyone is busy but there is some shit going down. Mike and I was kinda over it and so we headed outside for a quick smoke break. There was always empty kegs out where we smoked that we sat on. We both looked at each other like what the is going on tonight. We were both over it and I told him we should make out and really throw some spice into all this drama going on around us. He told me he’d love to make out with me and so there we stood in on make out session going down and his friend (they are still friends now) walked out , turned around and walked right back in saying, “this can’t be real life!”

Oh but it was. We made out a few more times that night like when he walked me my car that was parked in front of the window where everyone could see us. But still nobody really talked about us which was kinda strange but we were ok with it. I’m not sure who quit first but I do know I hadn’t seen him in a couple months when he came into the bar that was in my blog Legit Ballers. This was way before that even happened but anyways, same bar. He came in with his roommate to have a few drinks and shoot some pool.

After a couple hours and several shots later, things got flirty and those sexual innuendos were being used heavily. He mentioned that I probably didn’t need to drive and that he lived across the street and I should come play cards with him in his roommate. Strip poker to be exact. We were all drunk and horny. I remember us starting the game but some how I ended up in the shower with Mike. I think that’s when I realized how much I enjoy fucking in the shower. It’s just hawt!

After the shower fuck session we laid down in his bed. We were still extremely intoxicated but got into a deep conversation about causal sex and what would happened to us after this. We wasn’t super close after we didn’t work together and after that night I never really heard from him. Not until the POF days, around the time I first found Free Social Sex Network so I was doing a lot of fucking more from the POF side than Free Social Sex Network. I was pretty sure I saw his profile and checked it out first. One day I get this very lengthy email from him on POF. He went into telling me about his POV the night we finally hooked up.

During our drunken conversation about feelings he fell asleep and me being the horn I am wanted more, so I woke him up and got one more round. The next day we just woke up and he took me back to my car and I think he thought I was too drunk to remember the conversation and what happened and I thought the same of him. But he did and reading that many years later was kinda… had me in my feels. We messaged back and forth a few times and he decided that POF is not where he needed to be and that he needed tp try and make it work with his baby momma. So he turned his profile off and I didn’t really hear from him.

Somewhere down the line we become Facebook friends and so I’ve kept up with him and all his relationship issues. I think the relationship with his baby momma was one that should’ve never lasted long but she got pregnant and so he was trying to make it work and his infidelity to her was just something she wasn’t going to handle anymore. They had a together and they would simply co parent. And from what I can tell, they do it well. I’m probably way wrong per use….. but that’s what I see. I know that the see both parents and they throw joint bday parties and all that jazz but she’s remarried and he is still trying to figure his life out. He’s constantly posting about what expects out of a relationship and why he thinks relationships fail. I just want to be like no dude, you have to find a relationship that works for you. Stop trying to fix issues before it’s even an issue.

We all have some bad habits and my bad habits lead to late nights ending alone, conversation with a stranger I barely know swearing this will be the last time but it probably won’t. My bad habits lead to……….

SC: Ed Sherran
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Head over Feet
Posted:Jul 11, 2021 5:24 pm
Last Updated:Jul 11, 2021 5:32 pm
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This one is long over due and actually the first time I wrote this blog I hit a button and lost it and I was pissed. Everything happens for a reason, right?

L had been working on getting his backyard oasis ready for summer time. New patio furniture, pool chairs and the outdoor grilling area. Of course I helped him pick out and put together all of it. Nothing will test your Jesus like putting together patio furniture. I even talked him into making the lights and tv “smart”. Alexa, dim the lights! He loves it now. Everything was coming together nicely and we both were feeling proud of ourselves and couldn’t wait for the weather to get warm enough to swim.

Work was running like a well oiled machine, my were finishing up in school and my home life wasn’t to shabby either. For the first time in years I felt like I had my shit together. Then I got a call and I needed to go out of town and handle some business. When I told L about what was going on he said he’d go with me. I assured him I was big girl and could take care of myself. It wasn’t about not being about to handle shit on my own, I didn’t need to go alone and he was going.

L doesn’t do hotels so he found a airbnb close to where I needed to be. I followed him down there and we went and got some groceries and made ourselves at home. He was gonna work from his computer while I was out handling what I needed to tend to. He’d be there if I needed anything. The first couple of days for me was just whole lotta sitting and praying. As the week went on I was feeling hopeful and that everything would be ok. I wasn’t sure how long I was gonna have to stay but L was there as long as I needed to be. We went home for the weekend and went back on Monday.

Things were looking positive and I felt like everything was going to be ok, that’s when shit hit the fan and it felt like my soul had been ripped out of me. I was completely lost and felt defeated. It was around lunchtime when I returned to the Airbnb where L had found a keyboard and was just messing around on it. When he noticed I was there in tears explaining what happened he said, “This is why I’m here.”

I started to pack up my things and he said let’s just stay one more night. I had so many thoughts going to through my head. I just really wanted to go home. He said if that’s what you want to do but he really didn’t want me to drive so he was trying to figure out how to drive my car back and have someone bring him back to get his car. That was too much so I agreed to stay.

He ran me a hot bath and poured me a glass of Jack Daniels. While I was trying to relax he was playing the key board again. The one thing that really bonds us together is our love for music. We both come from musical families and often play name that tune while hanging out. We usually spend Thursdays together so we can watch beat Shazam. We’d totally win the million bucks. Since losing his brother he really hasn’t played any instrument. That was their thing to get together and jam. They both were talented.

I got done soaking in the tub and had a buzz going and was feeling a little better. We cooked dinner and the conversation over dinner was him telling me that no one should go through what I was going through and he was glad he could just be there. I told him I wasn’t sure how I was going to ever repay him. He told me I already had, that because of me he was able to play an instrument again. He was glad to have someone who loves music just as much as him.

After we cleaned up dinner he sat at the keyboard and played Drake White’s Makin’ me look good again. It took me back to when I heard his brother sing nutshell, the conviction in his voice that night pulled everything together for me. He sings all the time around me but not like he did that night. I also became a groupie that night and had the best sex I’ve ever had.

The next morning I woke up to the smell of breakfast cooking and a beautifully written card. We returned home and everything has returned to normal. I can finally breathe again and know that everything is going to be ok. I wish everyone had an L, you can’t have mine! Y’all already know I don’t share. But that is a FRIEND with benefits!

SC- alanis morissett
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Bluebird
Posted:Apr 22, 2021 11:12 am
Last Updated:Jun 2, 2021 9:33 am
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What is up? I know ’s been awhile since I’ve blogged. I’ve been extremely busy with work, sports and just life. So what have I been up ? How’s my sex life? Any new adventures off the site? How are my relationships going? I’ll answer all of those in this blog.

Now that things are finally getting back normal with people getting the vaccine and the mask mandate lifted in Al, it’s been great. It’s starting warm up and spring has definitely sprung. My allergies are not so great. But nothing a Zyrtec can’t handle. I absolutely love being outside and getting off the beaten path.

As I mentioned before I took a new position with my company and I absolutely love it. It definitely keeps me busy and it can get stressful but I’ve got a great team backing me sooooo yeah, I’m really enjoying it. On the weekends I’m usually in the woods and enjoying a cold beer somewhere.

Have I met anyone new off the site? No, I haven’t. Lots of opportunities but to be honest I’m ok with not meeting anyone. That could change or I may be done altogether with it. I don’t want to say I’m completely done because as sure as I do, something will happen. If it happens it happens and if don’t, it don’t. I’m not looking for any new meets.

How are my relationships? Well, my best gal pal and I have made more time for each other. We’ve been together most every Saturday with our families and just getting back the bonding time I was missing. It’s really nice to have her back. She’s got some exciting things going on and I’m glad I get to be a part of it.

Will turned 40 a few weeks ago and OMG, you’d think he was dying 🙄. I did meet him for lunch two counties over because #married. It was nice catching up with him and reminiscing on the “good ol days” like always. Of course he asked if we could go get a room and get naked, ummmm NO, sir! He tried everything but I just don’t want to go with him. He’ll never give up though. Bless it!

And although 2021 is panning out be a great year so far are a few bumps and things I’m still figuring out. One of those is my relationship with L. After he moved back from Cali we decided just be friends and leave the sex out of the equation. The #1 reason being that we never wanted lose the friendship aspect of something like what happened with Doc. Obviously I have feelings for L. Would I be ok when he decided start seeing someone that he could see a future with? That’s a whole other blog. I’ll write that one soon. But for now, L and I are in a good place and the sex is even better.

Speaking of Doc, yeah that relationship died the night I walked out of his house and drove away. I fought all I cared fight for even just a simple friendship with him. Absolutely no effort on his end was or has been given. It still makes me sad when I think about it but it is what it is. I really thought we’d remain friends. But I was just another partner in his “lifestyle” 🙄.

I hope everyone else is doing great and remember when life gives you lemons, just mix them in your drink! #wildcard
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In The End
Posted:Feb 16, 2021 1:55 pm
Last Updated:Mar 2, 2021 11:40 am
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I’ve gone back and forth on writing this here. But since it started here, might as well write the ending to this saga.

I hadn’t heard much from him so being , I messaged him just to see what he was up to. He said that he was pretty much working his life away and didn’t have time for anything else. I asked him if I could come see him and to my surprise he said yes. So I made plans to go see him last Friday night.

I was fine till I got in my car to go over there. He lives about an hour away, and I used to make the drive all the time so it didn’t seem that far. After what felt like an hour of driving to realize I wasn’t even half way there yet. So I called L just to pass the time but of course it went straight to voicemail. So it was just me and my thoughts in my head.

I finally arrived, took a drink of my diet Dr. Pepper, grabbed my phone and went to the door. He let me in and I went straight to the couch and sat down. I asked him how he’d been, it been almost 8 months since I’ve seen him. He looked like he’d lost weight but that could be because I’ve never seen him in regular cloths. Just in shorts and a ugly ass t-shirt (ROLL TIDE) that didn’t stay on long.

He made small talk and then I started to ask questions about her. He didn’t want to talk about it and I kept my composure till he yelled at and told if I kept on he’d kick of his house. My first thought was just to tell him to go fuck his self and leave but I didn’t. I explained that I just wanted to understand why he thought it was a good idea. The more I pushed the more he pushed back. I just didn’t want to see him waste his time on some bullshit.

So I sat on the couch in tears. I finally decided this was going nowhere and put my coat on and told him I couldn’t watch him do this. He shrugged his shoulders and I stood up and walked to the door. I turned around and asked him if it was me he didn’t want to talk about it with or anyone and he responded with, “ I don’t think you understand how private I am!” ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME? I reminded him that I had read his blog...... all of it! I walked out, got in my car and thought about it. My phone rang and it was L. I asked him if he was home and he said he was on his way and he’d meet me there.

I beat him there and waited for like 20 minutes and when he got out he handed me a bottle of fireball and said, “ thought you might need this.” Thanks! He asked me what I thought was gonna happen by going over there. Answers, I wanted some answers. I thought maybe he’d let me in if I was to .I just want to support him and be a friend. It’s not my decision though. Either I was going to support his decision that he thinks is best for him or just walk away from the whole situation. Just like I can’t tell Doc what to do, L it wasn’t gonna tell what to do. That was my decision.

I deleted all the pics and the videos and the platform that we used to communicate. All the conversations over the last 2 years. Kinda outta site out of mind. I wish him the best. I hope it all works out. I haven’t locked the door but I closed it for now. I tried so hard and got so far but in the end it didn’t really matter.
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Bare With me
Posted:Jan 23, 2021 3:21 pm
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2021 5:57 am
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Happy New year!!! First blog of 2021 and so far so good! I made my husband take out for New Year’s. After sitting in the house for most of 2020 I’m determined make 2021 a better year. Besides I don’t think we’ve even went out on New since having . So I got glammed up and we hit the town. Nice dinner and we ended the night at a friends party.

Work well wor I’m enjoying my new position. Although last week my patience was tested. I’m pretty chill until I’m pissed then...... just don’t fuck with . People are always saying my hair color matches my attitude. Don’t with fire!

My sex life is really boring at the moment and it ’s not for lack of men being interested, It’s more of me just not being ready. I mean the idea sounds great and the want is definitely there. But I get that point and I can’t follow through with meeting anyone new. I’m just not ready myself back out there. Most of the men are understanding and some say I’m just fake 🙄.

I also want say I was never led on in any kinda way. This was me and getting in my own head. It just happened. Will it happen again? I don’t know! I have somehow figure out how keep the sex and the friendship separated. I mean I like the idea of one just one person. But I don’t want that bitterness when it ends.

My biggest issue with Doc, is not that it ended but the person it ended for. The way she treats him and shit he puts up with, it still leaves me saying WTF dude. But he allows it and he chooses sit alone and drink his misery away. Only wake up next day and do it all over. I don’t feel sorry for anyone who chooses misery over trying make changes try and be happy.

I’m not quite ready hang up my hoe heels yet. I might be 40 now, but pussy is still as tight as it was when I was 20. I’m sure there are some cocks that need that kinda experience, lol. I don’t know when exactly I’ll be ready, so just bare wit me!
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Lighters
Posted:Dec 30, 2020 1:24 pm
Last Updated:Jan 16, 2021 9:02 pm
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If you’ve been reading my blog you already know how I feel about Eminem. So when he teamed up with Bruno Mars on the Bad meets Evil album I thought it was the perfect song to close out my blogs for 2020.

What a fucking year! It’s been filled with twist and turns that I wasn’t expecting or ready for. I think it’s been a rough year for a lot of people. I mean a global pandemic, on the verge of a civil war and our 1st woman as Vice President was elected. This year will most definitely be in the history books somewhere between the Holocaust and The Great Depression. Speaking of depression, learning how to deal with my own hasn’t been easy.

I’ve struggled with becoming a teacher to my with distance learning. I read something the other day that said in 20 years the worlds gonna be ran by homeschooled taught by day drinkers. And watching my nephews say goodbye to their dad was extremely sad. Addiction sucks!

This year wasn’t all bad though. I was very blessed that I was able to work from home. I mean who doesn’t like wearing their pjs while drinking mimosas and getting shit done? As much as I was ready to throw in the towel, working for some amazing people makes all worthwhile! I even got a raise in the middle of all this craziness.

My relationships with my friends has really struggled this year. Learning how to share my best friend hasn’t been easy. We’ve spent the last 10 years inseparable and now I get a lunch date here and there, I just don’t see or talk to her as much. She made a career change at the beginning of this year and we don’t have the same schedules anymore. And her are grown while mine are still very young. So I can’t hang out at the bars like they can. And then the whole FWB..... imma leave that one alone in this blog. I’ve said enough about that in my previous blogs.

I’ve had a little fun with my clothes off not near as much as I would have liked but that’s hard to do at six feet apart and with a mask on. Bahahahaha. And of course L, he came along at the right time and although I was just trying to replace a void with him, he will forever be a friend. Thanks for dealing with my crazy ass. We’ve decided not to fuck anymore and just keep things in the friend zone.

I’m nervous to see what 2021 holds. I start a new decade in life #40 and starting on the 4th of January I take on a new position with my company. So tomorrow night at 11:59, raise them lighters up and let’s bring a bright positive light into the new year. Cheers y’all!
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Monster (JB/SM)
Posted:Dec 21, 2020 2:28 pm
Last Updated:Dec 22, 2020 9:41 am
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Every once in awhile all the stars align and everything seems work out. It’s rare and it doesn’t happen often, so when it does, I hold on it.

A little over 2 months ago I helped L pack up his entire life, kissed him goodbye and he was off start a new chapter in his life. I knew from the start that he would be leaving but in the back of mind I hoped that he would stay. When are involved all bets are off and they Trump everything and everyone. He didn’t know if he would be back for Thanksgiving but he would for sure be back for Christmas and we would hang out then.

Last week he called and told he’d be here Thursday and so of course I wanted to see him ASAP. I had my work party Friday but I just had to stay long enough to exchange our gifts and I could dip out. L said to meet him at his house. No, he hasn’t even put it on the market yet. So after an hour at the party I texted L and told him I was on my way. I was super excited to see him.

As I pulled up I noticed the Christmas lights and was a little confused. But I seen his Rubicon in the driveway and so I grabbed the 40 Jell-O shots that I made for the party but forgot about them until I saw them in the floor board and went in. As soon as I walked in I was greeted by a big Ol bear hug. I’ve missed him so much. I picked up the container with the Jell-O shots in them and went to put them in the fridge. Luckily it’s -9° Outside so they were fine. We ate like 5 a piece before putting them up.

As I looked around the kitchen I noticed everything was in its place. I mean I helped pack everything in this kitchen and now it’s all bac WTF is up??? So I went through the rest of the house and it was all there, everything! Like it was never moved. Even the unmade bed. I’m confused #storyofmylife. “I couldn’t do it” he said. “Alabama is home and it’s where I belong!!” I had lots questions.

So while we cooked some food and ate the rest of the Jell-O shots he told me he went and he tried everything to like Cali, he just couldn’t. Not even his could keep him there. So he packed up what little he had unpacked in Cali and came home.

Over dinner the conversation quickly went from him to me. L is one of those on and off AFFers. He hides his profile longer than he keeps its active. So he hopped on to see what California had to offer and when he got home last week he decided to check in on me and he thought maybe I could use some “unwanted” advice myself. It doesn’t bother me though. Any advice that’s given I take what I need and what I don’t, I just don’t.

He said I think I know what your problem is. Instead of allowing yourself to heal you just replace what you think you need. Sure it was the sex that you thought you were replacing but also those lingering feelings too. You never allowed any real time before jumping to cover up that void. Which I know goes a lot deeper than these men. He said when people are ripped out of our lives whether it be by death or by choice there is always some sort of void.

Some voids you cannot fill and others that can be filled need time. It’s not always out with the old and in with the new. He said that while my feelings are real and valid, you can’t make someone who doesn’t care, understand. It’s not my job. He also said to continue to be who I am. Continue to be that friend. And if things do fall apart, don’t come in hot with the “I told you so”. Just be there to pick up the pieces. That goes with the past, present and future.

I gathered our plates and we cleaned up the kitchen. He had put up a dart board and so we jammed out, threw some darts and enjoyed a few more drinks. Made a few bets and enjoyed the rest of the night.
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Dancing on my own
Posted:Dec 7, 2020 10:52 am
Last Updated:Jan 27, 2021 11:44 am
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This one is gonna be a tough one to write, but I need to while the emotions are still fresh. I should just let it go and after this I probably will lose a friend. It’s not that I don’t care in fact I care way too much about someone who doesn’t care about me or my feelings. You’d think I’d be use to it by now but it still sucks.

It all started after I decided to cut off SB off for good. I’d been fucking him regularly and was needed someone to continue to give me the sex I wasn’t getting at home. So I reached out to Doc and finally got up the courage to go meet him. The sex was good and so he became a regular. I’d go see him once a week and this lasted for over a year. Though I was fucking others here and there, he was the main one.

I knew he was seeing other people too. Although I didn’t really like it there wasn’t anything I could do about it. Those were my feelings and I knew it came with a FWB type of relationship. This is not my first rodeo with a FWB type of relationship. But when you fuck someone for that long and pretty regularly, other feelings happen. He knew about them and still continued to fuck me. So I took it as he was ok with the fact that there were more than the FWB feelings involved.

Everything was going great till the pandemic happened. When the world shut down I got overwhelmed with now being at home with my and not going anywhere. And so I didn’t see Doc for like 3 months. It’s not like I didn’t want to but I didn’t know much about the Corona and I have to look out for. I mean the way it was introduced to us it was a very deadly virus. Knowing what I know now, I think it’s all bullshit. It’s no deadlier than the flu. I had it. Not only did I get over it, but my family that stays in my face didn’t catch it. I know it affects people differently so don’t come for me about my opinions of it.

After everything started to open back up and I finally decided that it was ok to leave my house and go get the sex that I desperately needed. Doc had said he didn’t really see anyone and was getting sexually frustrated as well. So around the time I went, he had met this new gal. She was everything he dreamed of according to his blog. Young, wanted more and connected with him emotionally which BTW is very difficult to do. He doesn’t let people in easily and I spent the last 1.5 trying get him open up and he kinda did.

This chick is married and he very clearly said that he wouldn’t allow hisself fall for anyone that was married. Those are his exact words. But for some reason this chick comes into his life and I get shoved to the side. I mean the blog went from, she’s married and doesn’t know she’s unhappy to welllll she now wants out of the marriage and wants to see where things go in a matter of weeks. Ok cool.

I go over to his place and I get all in my feelings, like crying and just trying to understand what she had that I didn’t. Why he didn’t he have those feelings for me. At this time she was in the same exact boat I was. But those were my insecurities and my demons. I don’t think he meant to make me feel like I just wasnt good enough but he did. So that night was cut short and I went home and got myself together. I contemplated whether or not I should even continue to see him. But I wasn’t quite ready to end things. So I went back the next wee

Things were better and I kept my emotions in chec Here’s where things really got . As I was putting my clothes back on I heard his phone ding and I knew it was because I use it too and so I knew it was one of his other girls and he picks it up and I don’t know if he read it or what. But he knows how I feel and can’t wait till I leave to look at it. It wasn’t a phone call or a regular message from a “real” friend. I felt very disrespected. I mean idc that he’s fucking other girls, but at least have enough respect for me that when I’m there sucking your dick, that’s my time until I leave.

I have NEVER responded to another “fuck buddy” while I was with someone else. Had it been a regular call or it wouldn’t have bothered . But I left and I didn’t say anything. Again these are my demons within myself and I was just gonna let it go.

So the next week I texted him to make plans and he doesn’t even open it till the next day after I texted him again about what day would be good for him. And he was kinda a dick about it and told a day and said he was busy the rest of the days. I had a lot of my plate. I was dealing with my family and their addiction and work was overwhelming because of the pandemic and I just had a lot going on so when he decided to be a dick I jumped the and said I couldn’t see him anymore. I didn’t mean it but I got ahead of myself and popped off.

Did I expect him to beg for me, NO. But I didn’t really expect him to just write me off like he did. It was because of this married woman that all of a sudden now wants to be in a exclusive relationship. All of sudden now she wants a divorce. So when I tried to apologize is was too late. He now was going to do what he said he would never do an date married woman. Am I jealous? Fuck yeah I am. Why wouldn’t I be?

Now remember I’ve been seeing him for a while now and he knew I was struggling because I told him when I apologized and wanted to still see him and was told NO because of my feelings which he’s known about and now it’s not a good idea?? Whatever....

Not one time does he ever ask me if I’m ok! Not one time did he ever just to check up on . But yet takes her to the beach because she’s having a tough time and wanted her to get way from the stresses of life. Bless her soul! I was extremely hurt. Not because he took her to the beach but because I’ve been a great friend and I get nothing!

But I still continued to be a friend and I had some concerns and I got very little response out of him. I know, I should’ve cut my losses there and just been done with it but I know he’s a very closed off person so I just continued to just live life and things started to get better for me. My work got better, I lost the weight I’d been trying to lose and just felt good.

I would check in with Doc just because I want to know what’s going on in his life. I really want him to be happy. But then came the blog and it was basically everything that my gut said about this chic He took her on another weekend getaway and according to him it was less than perfect. I didn’t say anything. I know he cares about her and he was hurt. Then came the follow up blog.

Now this over the last 6 months, this is how long they’ve known each other. He said they’ve talked it out and he’s given an ultimatum and rules that she had to abide by. Huh..... oh and help for her divorce that won’t happen unless he makes her go through with it. Sounds like a fairytale, right?

So I gave him my opinion and pointed out that I was pretty spot on about this whole mess. Once again I got ignored. So I asked him if he still wanted be friends and I get cussed at and told to drop it. He doesn’t want to talk about her and he doesn’t need advice. Don’t need it or don’t want it? So I asked him if he doesn’t want advice/ opinions why put it out there for 0’s of people read and leave comments on. He tells me his blog is a place vent and I totally get that. He said that he’s gonna do wtf he wants to do regardless of what anyone says. Yeah, how’s that working out for ya? He also said that nobody gets the whole story. So why put half the story out there? Makes sense. I get you leave some things out. But either you’re making this chick out to be something she’s really not or you’re just pissed off because you don’t want to hear the truth.

Do I want to completely end my relationship with him, No, I don’t. I love him and that just doesn’t go away. But I’m sure he’s just gonna get mad and cut me off because of this blog. And honestly at this point, what am I really losing? According to him this girl doesn’t have much of good friends and I’m not sure why, but now she could be costing him his. I get it’s his life to live but I’m not gonna sit back and watch him throw it away and keep my mouth shut. So if you do decide to cut me off, it’s been real. I hope you get what you want. Sorry I wasn’t good enough. That’s exactly how you made me feel.
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Love Lies
Posted:Nov 16, 2020 5:38 pm
Last Updated:Dec 5, 2020 10:56 am
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Right before I had huge wake up call that would change my life, I met Ryan. He was a friend of a friend. During football season we would get together at this low key wing shack. The beer was cheap and the food was decent. If you have ever been to Alabama you know we eat, sleep and breathe college football. There are two teams, The Alabama Crimson Tide and The Auburn Tigers. You
pick one, there’s no “I root for both”. Fuck that mess, pick one if you’re not from here.

On game day everyone puts on their teams colors and everyone gets together to watch the games. Me, I am Bama fan and Ryan was an Auburn graduate. Ryan would always sit next to me and talk shit during the Bama game and I’d return the shit talking during the Auburn game.

One Saturday I got to the wing shack before everyone and got a table. Joe had came in and mentioned Ryan’s birthday was coming up and so we ran over a couple doors and grabbed a cake. Neither one of us knew what kind he liked so we picked what we liked, lol. So we got back with the cake and waited for Ryan to get there and we all sang and embarrassed the hell outta him. Good times!

A couple days later I got a from Ryan asking if I wanted to see the new Saw movie that just came out. It just wasn’t a good day and explained why. He said it was his actual birthday and he really wanted to do something. With a little convincing I told him I’d be ready about hour before the movie started. So he picked me up and we got drinks and popcorn and found our seats. We were pretty early and so we sat and talked. Mostly about football and how fall was the best part of there year. Cooler weather, football and haunted houses.

Ryan and I got pretty close, but I couldn’t read the situation. There was no kisses at the end the outings we’d go on. We went to several haunted houses that year. But just as friends. The more we hung out the more I developed feelings for him. I didn’t realize that we both were at a very dark place in life.

He had dated a girl for like 5 or 6 years and they broke up and then tried to work things out and she died either of an unintentional overdose or intentional one. No one really knew. He was having a hard time getting over that while I was trying to numb the pain of all the shit I’d went through over the last 8 years. I was getting pills from a some dealer I knew and Ryan would always want some.

Neither one of us saw the addiction in each other. We needed these to deal with the turmoil of life. So it was ok. This went on for months. None of our other friends knew about the pills. We was also smoking hella pot. Pretty soon we was hanging out every night. Just smoking and exchanging stories about college. We both had a great time in college except he came out with an engineering degree and I came out with wellllll I got a a basic bitch degree. Hey, at least I got a degree, right?

I went to get some pills and I told Ryan to meet me at my place. So he was waiting for me when I got there. He wanted to go somewhere and wanted me to ride with him so I let my out and his ass took off. So we jumped in his car and chased down my dog. Two blocks over some were out playing and so they caught him and we was gonna run back by my place, drop Fido off and go about our business.

I seen the cop car parked in the parking lot near my place but I didn’t think nothing of it. As I was coming out of my house I saw the cop pull In behind Ryan’s car and I freaked. The cop asked my name and placed me under arrest for several warrants. Now I’m not some big bad convict ( no shade to anyone who is) they were all FTA’s on some traffic bullshit. I didn’t really think they’d come pick me up..... they did.

Ryan had no clue to what was going on and we both had pills on us. So he was freaking out. But they were there to get me so the didn’t fuck with him.. Luckily my pills were in my purse which I handed to Ryan along with my phone and told him to call my parents and tell them what was going on. This guy had never met my parents and now he had call and tell them their was in jail and he had no clue why. He did it though.

So for the next few weeks I got to sit in jail and think about my life and knew I needed to make some major changes in life or I was gonna end right back in there. That’s not the life I wanted. I was better than that. While I had so many reason why I justified why I did the shit I did, jail was not fun. It’s nasty, the food is horrible and I didn’t belong there. On my phone calls home, my dad said Ryan had called a few times to check on me. So he was the first one I called when I got out. Well I texted him and he responded immediately and told me he was expecting my call any day now.

While I was in jail I lost everything, my home, my car.... everything! Yeah, I did some time. And my family couldn’t afford my bills and theirs. But I had Ryan! We went out a few times and had a lot of heart to hearts. I really cared about him. My family loved him. I mean he’s educated, got a great job and he was the only friend I had when I got out of jail. But he didn’t want to cross the friendship line.

Over the next few months I would slowly rebuild my life. New place of my own, pos car, but at least I had one. And Ryan was there every step of they way. But you know me, I ain’t gonna wait around on no one, so I was hooking up with whoever I wanted. But I really wanted a relationship with Ryan. I thought he was my end game. I was up front about my feelings and he shot me down and I would wait a while and finally he agreed, let’s try to date and see what happens.

That lasted all of like two weeks. We had sex one time during that time and I wish I could say it was awesome but I don’t even remember it. It was just awkward as fuck and I knew it wasn’t gonna work so I acted a fool and ended things before he did because I thought he was. I thought he just agreed to try things because I wouldn’t let it go.

Recently I got one of those phone calls that I was kinda expecting and was dreading even going. I got there and walked in and found a pew off to the side. I didn’t care to talk to anyone I was there because it was the right thing to do. I grabbed my phone out of my purse and was scrolling FB avoiding looking at anyone and just giving the “leave me alone” vibe. I seen a post from Ryan. Something along the lines of when you hurt the people you love, you’re only really hurting yourself, and he was sorry. He very rarely post of FB, maybe once a year if that. I liked the post and didn’t think that much of it.

After I got married the only time we ever talked was during football season and the last few years that hasn’t even happened. I always text him on his birthday and last year I got a thank you and the “seems like you got what you wanted out of life” speech. I tried to explain to him that what you see on social media can be somewhat of a facade. Yes I have a family and live a pretty comfortable life. But that doesn’t necessarily mean happiness.

This year on his birthday I knew it was a big one, 40. I sent him my usual happy birthday. I heard NOTHING! No thank you, NOTHING! It was what it was. But I guess when he saw that I liked his status he decided to text me. I had put phone away when the funeral started and was listening to this absolute bullshit of a eulogy and praying that it would end soon so I could leave. My watch vibrated and I saw the text was from Ryan and it was everything that he should have said years ago.

I still haven’t responded to him. I don’t know what to say. I mean I gave up on that shortly after it ended. Another valuable lesson in life, don’t wait till it’s too late. I’ll end this blog like he ended his FB post; if you ever read this, I’m sorry!
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Let it go (Keyshia Cole)
Posted:Oct 25, 2020 7:05 pm
Last Updated:Oct 26, 2020 6:05 pm
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I got a message from a some dudes wife asking me why I think it’s ok to fuck other married men. Apparently he forgot close out his Free Social Sex Network account and she found it. We had been messaging back and forth for about a month. It wasn’t going anywhere (on my end at least) but the banter was fun and entertaining. But she did dig into my profile and read my blogs. I got to give it to her, she did her homework before she came for me. Told me she had saved the messages and she was gonna find out who I am and expose me. Good luck, lady!

This isn’t the first time someone has came at me because they thought I was fucking their man. I had two gang up on me and really thought they were fixing do something back in college, here’s how that went down.

SB and I had a falling out and I was over it. So my girlfriend that I went to college with decided we needed to go to a party over at one of the frat houses. So we got all dolled up and went to this party. We knew a few of the people there and chatted it up with them, played a few games of beer pong and proceeded to get drunk.

There was a very cute boy that was flirting with me and so he was my partner in beer pong. After winning a few games we found ourselves in the corner talking about god knows what. He asked me if I wanted go back to his place and chill and I knew exactly where this was going and so I went. We hooked up over the next couple of weeks. It was one of those “what are you doing” at 1 in the morning kinda hook ups. Nothing more, nothing less. My girlfriend said he had a girl he was seeing but he said it wasn’t serious and in fact he had called things off a few nights before he met me. She didn’t want it to end so she was hanging on to whatever she could.

I wasn’t trying get involved in any drama so I just let it go and was hooking with this other guy I had known for a while. He too had just broke up with this CRAZY chick. I mean this girl would call him non stop and show up at his place randomly. She had key so she’d let herself in and I was definitely not about that shit either. I mean I had plenty of drama deal with seeing my “going thru a divorce” married boss. The only reason I was hooking up with other guys was because he pissed me off. I’m a petty bitch....

Anyways come to find out these two guys “ex” girlfriends so happened to be friends. They hung out at the frat houses way more than I did and I knew who they were but they weren’t friends of mine. So one night I was at one of the bars close to campus where most of that group hung out if there wasn’t a party going on. I was sitting at a table waiting on some friends and these two girls came and sat down and started asking questions. Wanted to know why I was hooking with their men when I know they had girlfriends. I really didn’t know they had girlfriends nor did I care. If y’all were taking care of ya man, they wouldn’t be calling me!

After they both realized I really didn’t give a shit about their relationship with their so called boyfriends, they said they was pretty sure I wasn’t the only one they were fucking. I let them know that I was definitely not into either of them like that and basically they was just another name in my black book. They didn’t need to worry about me anymore. I bought a round of shots and we all moved on.

Listen, if you catch your SO cheating, don’t come for the one they’re cheating with. That’s something you need to handle with your wife/husband. Call me what you will, at the end of the day it’s about the sex and I don’t care about whoever’s wife I’m fucking. I don’t wantcha man just his cock.

You need to get if he don’t wanna
Love you the right way he ain’t gonna
It ain’t where he’s at, it’s where he wants to be
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The way I talk
Posted:Oct 15, 2020 8:04 pm
Last Updated:Oct 20, 2020 10:24 pm
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This meet has been in the works since December of last year. Though it seemed the odds were stacked against us, we still managed make it happen. Here’s how it went.

Last December I got a message from Jon, saying he would be down here in March for a fishing tournament and would love to get some action off the water. Over the next few months we texted and sent a few pics. March couldn’t get here fast enough for both of us. Wellll we all know what March brought- fucking Covid, shutting the entire world down and that meant no fishing tournament.

At the time we really didn’t know what would happen but the fishing trip was postponed till October.

Over the summer we didn’t really talk that much. Maybe a “hey” here and there but that was about it. I really didn’t think much about him coming. If you follow my blog you know I was going through some shit anyways and so things have a way of working out.

Fast forward to September; he messaged me and said he’d be down the first week in October. He said he was still interested in meeting up. I told him to let me know when he arrived in Alabama. I’m in a different head space and definitely still wanted to see him.

He arrived on a Saturday and Bama had played early so I was about 6 too many beers to drive anywhere and I told him that I could possibly get away the next night. Now my husband has switched jobs since the original meeting date and it’s hard to know when he’s gonna be home and when he’s not. So after the 4th night of me saying I couldn’t meet up, he was getting frustrated and rightfully so. But he didn’t give up and neither did I.

The last night of his trip I finally got free and so he had the dinner and awards that night and didn’t know how long that would last and I couldn’t be out all night so time was of the essence. He tells me where he’s at and I head that direction. He told me to go find us a secluded spot. Yes I was born and raised right here in north Alabama but I know shit about where he was at. I knew how to get there and that was it. I tell him to meet me at a store and we’d go from there.

So he finds me and hops in my car and we are off to find a spot to fuc Immediately he makes fun of my accent. He’s from Wisconsin so I sounded funny him and vice versa. We find a spot and chatted for a few minutes, but he’s not here chat, he’s here fuc So he goes in for some kisses. They were soft and sweet, not too much tongue and definitely a turn on. So we moved into the backseat so we’d have more room. After he quit bitching about how messy my car was (I’ve got 2 ) we had another make out session and he made sure I was wet.

We both were extremely horny and was ready to fuck! He put on a condom and I slipped it in. OMG..... he felt so fucking good. It’s been a while since I’ve had a cock his size in me. He stretched me out nicely. A few minutes into it he said he was gonna cum. I’ve been told many times how good my pussy feels so I wasn’t shocked and honestly impressed he lasted as long as he did on the first round.

We fogged up with windows and it was hot as shit so I rolled down the windows to get some air flowing. We spent the next 45 minutes making fun of each other’s accents and him telling me that I should have prepared my car a little more. He’s 6’3” so fucking in the backseat of a car isn’t ideal. So the next round didn’t go as planned and we gave up. He had left his phone in his car back at the store and got worried that the fellas he was down with might try to call him or his wife.

So I took him back to his car and I think my driving and singing on the back kinda scared him, lol! He kissed me bye and got out and got his phone and saw he did have a few missed calls. I wanted a hug so I hopped out and ran around the car and although he got to see my ass a couple of times up close in the car he couldn’t resist grabbing it one more time before saying goodbye.

We texted while he made the long drive back up north and I told him to keep in touch. I don’t know if I’ll ever see him again but I’m glad I got to meet him and we got a small taste of what the sex would be like if he lived closer! All the time and without the condom. Even if we don’t ever meet up again, I think we will definitely stay in touch!
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The way I talk
Posted:Oct 15, 2020 7:58 pm
Last Updated:Mar 29, 2024 12:7 am
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This meet has been in the works since December of last year. Though it seemed the odds were stacked against us, we still managed make it happen. Here’s how it went.

Last December I got a message from Jon, saying he would be down here in March for a fishing tournament and would love to get some action off the water. Over the next few months we texted and sent a few pics. March couldn’t get here fast enough for both of us. Wellll we all know what March brought- fucking Covid, shutting the entire world down and that meant no fishing tournament.

At the time we really didn’t know what would happen but the fishing trip was postponed till October.

Over the summer we didn’t really talk that much. Maybe a “hey” here and there but that was about it. I really didn’t think much about him coming. If you follow my blog you know I was going through some shit anyways and so things have a way of working out.

Fast forward to September; he messaged me and said he’d be down the first week in October. He said he was still interested in meeting up. I told him to let me know when he arrived in Alabama. I’m in a different head space and definitely still wanted to see him.

He arrived on a Saturday and Bama had played early so I was about 6 too many beers to drive anywhere and I told him that I could possibly get away the next night. Now my husband has switched jobs since the original meeting date and it’s hard to know when he’s gonna be home and when he’s not. So after the 4th night of me saying I couldn’t meet up, he was getting frustrated and rightfully so. But he didn’t give up and neither did I.

The last night of his trip I finally got free and so he had the dinner and awards that night and didn’t know how long that would last and I couldn’t be out all night so time was of the essence. He tells me where he’s at and I head that direction. He told me to go find us a secluded spot. Yes I was born and raised right here in north Alabama but I know shit about where he was at. I knew how to get there and that was it. I tell him to meet me at a store and we’d go from there.

So he finds me and hops in my car and we are off to find a spot to fuc Immediately he makes fun of my accent. He’s from Wisconsin so I sounded funny him and vice versa. We find a spot and chatted for a few minutes, but he’s not here chat, he’s here fuc So he goes in for some kisses. They were soft and sweet, not too much tongue and definitely a turn on. So we moved into the backseat so we’d have more room. After he quit bitching about how messy my car was (I’ve got 2 ) we had another make out session and he made sure I was wet.

We both were extremely horny and was ready to fuck! He put on a condom and I slipped it in. OMG..... he felt so fucking good. It’s been a while since I’ve had a cock his size in me. He stretched me out nicely. A few minutes into it he said he was gonna cum. I’ve been told many times how good my pussy feels so I wasn’t shocked and honestly impressed he lasted as long as he did on the first round.

We fogged up with windows and it was hot as shit so I rolled down the windows to get some air flowing. We spent the next 45 minutes making fun of each other’s accents and him telling me that I should have prepared my car a little more. He’s 6’3” so fucking in the backseat of a car isn’t ideal. So the next round didn’t go as planned and we gave up. He had left his phone in his car back at the store and got worried that the fellas he was down with might try to call him or his wife.

So I took him back to his car and I think my driving and singing on the back kinda scared him, lol! He kissed me bye and got out and got his phone and saw he did have a few missed calls. I wanted a hug so I hopped out and ran around the car and although he got to see my ass a couple of times up close in the car he couldn’t resist grabbing it one more time before saying goodbye.

We texted while he made the long drive back up north and I told him to keep in touch. I don’t know if I’ll ever see him again but I’m glad I got to meet him and we got a small taste of what the sex would be like if he lived closer! All the time and without the condom. Even if we don’t ever meet up again, I think we will definitely stay in touch!
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